30 Paintings In 30 Days Challenge
I think I should title this one " Diary Of A Confused Artist ", or maybe that should be this blog title, or both. SO... I am sticking with the program, in the face of adversity, I am sticking with it. I would like to just file this painting memory all together, but no, here it is. Today was an off day. I am still dragging around the house, trying to remove decorations, taking them all down for 2014. I miss the light in this dark house when the decorations come down. All in all, it was a wonderful Christmas. But January creeps in with darkness again as I strain my eyes to see.
I suppose this darkened mood wasn't the best way to approach my painting of the day. Or, maybe my sense of failure with Number 4 darkened the day for me, not sure which came first. I can accept failure alright, I knew when I was posting this thing it was rather awful, but I did it anyways. The Challenge is to challenge ME, and no one else. If in the process I gain feedback and kind support, that's an added plus to the whole endeavor. If I am so insecure that I allow myself to sulk because I didn't produce what my ego needs, time to grow up, Mary Ann. Yeah, like Joan Rivers would say.. "OH, GROW UP"
What did I learn today? I remembered that non-representational art is not easy. To paint from nothing gives me no plan to follow, and in a split second, all Hell breaks loose and what once looked alright, is lost. I forgot about that aspect of painting with no plan. Yesterday, I planned on painting very little and that would be it. Today, I allowed myself too much time to explore, and was quickly lost. I confused myself to the point of needing to start all over, but instead, I'll just leave this as is.
Tomorrow is a new day, I'll start over with Number 5.